Wednesday, April 1, 2015
This is no April Fool's joke, we are almost 8 weeks pregnant!! According to the ultrasound we got today we are measuring at 7 weeks 6 days. Woo hoo!! That means we are going to probably have a November baby. I wish we were going to have a summer baby, but hey we're having a baby and as long as that little thing is healthy, we're good.
Today we actually looked at a little peanut instead of a grain or rice. I know an ultrasound doesn't show much but it makes me so happy to see a little heartbeat chugging along at 167 beats per minute.
I wish I felt better on a daily basis but hey I get through the day and I'm no where near the nausea that causes people to get on medication.
Thursday, April 2, 2015
Wednesday, April 1, 2015
I don't remember this either last time...
March 31, 2015
It just occurred to me that I don't remember going to appointments like two weeks apart in the beginning. Maybe my doctor is just being cautious with me. I'm not sure.
I've had pregnancy complications in the past so I understand that my doctor is a little more cautious with me. I don't however remember seeing the doctor every two weeks. I also don't remember getting an ultrasound every two weeks in the beginning.
On Monday (yesterday), I went to the doctor. Luckily she did change our next appointment to be in 4 weeks but I am having an ultrasound tomorrow. I just had one two weeks ago. Don't get me wrong, I love getting to see the blob turn into something but it was a tiny blob last time... I'm pretty sure it will be a slightly larger blob tomorrow.
Oh well, maybe the doctor is just checking something else out and doesn't want to unnecessarily alarm me about something that may turn out to be nothing. We'll see.
It just occurred to me that I don't remember going to appointments like two weeks apart in the beginning. Maybe my doctor is just being cautious with me. I'm not sure.
I've had pregnancy complications in the past so I understand that my doctor is a little more cautious with me. I don't however remember seeing the doctor every two weeks. I also don't remember getting an ultrasound every two weeks in the beginning.
On Monday (yesterday), I went to the doctor. Luckily she did change our next appointment to be in 4 weeks but I am having an ultrasound tomorrow. I just had one two weeks ago. Don't get me wrong, I love getting to see the blob turn into something but it was a tiny blob last time... I'm pretty sure it will be a slightly larger blob tomorrow.
Oh well, maybe the doctor is just checking something else out and doesn't want to unnecessarily alarm me about something that may turn out to be nothing. We'll see.
I don't remember this last time
March 24, 2015
My poor husband is probably so tired of hearing me say the following:
- I'm tired.
- Why am I so exhausted?
- I just need to take a nap
- Let let me lie down for 10 minutes
- Do you need dinner tonight?
- I don't feel good
- My stomach hurts
- No I'm just tired
The one thing I do remember is being moody. Not like lash out and go all Kanye West on paparazzi crazy but emotional like, "everything is making me cry" moody.
I am however am extremely lucky that I don't have worse symptoms and I acknowledge that but I am not going to sit here and type that it's all hunky-dory, sunshine and lollipops. It's hard. It's especially hard to be this way when you haven't told but a few people.
It's kind of like self torture. You don't want to tell anyone how you are feeling but the beginning of the pregnancy is usually when you feel the worst. Your body hasn't morphed into a giant fetus hotel yet so you just look chunkier or more bloated than usual. To top it off, you are most likely too scared to tell anyone what the issue is for fear that, God forbid, you send a little angel to heaven.
Why? Why must we torture ourselves.
Pregnancy is not perfect. If anyone says it is, they are lying and you should distance yourself from them. For the most part, I like being pregnant as I generally feel pretty good but we all have our days. We miss things like:
- Not looking like we're smuggling different types of balls under our shirts
- Pants that fit for more than a month at a time
- Feet that fit our "fun" shoes (because our feet have widened and we fear they may never shrink again!)
- Wine, beer, spirits, etc.
- Not having aches in more places than you'd ever like to count
- Sleeping a full eight hours waking feeling refreshed not like you've gone to an all night rave and drank too much
- Sushi
- Lunch meat
- etc.
So if you are pregnant, get pregnant or have been pregnant remember that you are doing something incredible. Something that doesn't seem possible. Something that deserves praise.
It's a hard job and the boys just can't handle it. Haha!
First Ultrasound
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Today we went for our first ultrasound to see the newest baby Ford. Although it was a mere grain of rice at a minute 2.5mm, it was there. The little flicker of a heartbeat was pounding at 160 beats per minute. I have never been so relieved to see something so tiny become so real.
I was a tad bit nervous since my doctor's appointment on Monday. Unlike last time I got pregnant, I wasn't so sure that I was pregnant this time. My period had kind of started but then it tapered off. It was only after my weird period that I thought, "you know, let's just take a test to be sure that you're not pregnant." Well, clearly when I took the test it came up positive. I was a bit surprised. When I told my doctor that my period had kind of started and then stopped she mentioned that I might have just had a miscarriage. My heart fell out of my chest! At least that isn't true for now.
Keep your fingers crossed that this little grain of rice grows strong and healthy!
Today we went for our first ultrasound to see the newest baby Ford. Although it was a mere grain of rice at a minute 2.5mm, it was there. The little flicker of a heartbeat was pounding at 160 beats per minute. I have never been so relieved to see something so tiny become so real.
I was a tad bit nervous since my doctor's appointment on Monday. Unlike last time I got pregnant, I wasn't so sure that I was pregnant this time. My period had kind of started but then it tapered off. It was only after my weird period that I thought, "you know, let's just take a test to be sure that you're not pregnant." Well, clearly when I took the test it came up positive. I was a bit surprised. When I told my doctor that my period had kind of started and then stopped she mentioned that I might have just had a miscarriage. My heart fell out of my chest! At least that isn't true for now.
Keep your fingers crossed that this little grain of rice grows strong and healthy!
First appointment
Monday, March 16, 2015
Today we went to the doctor for our first appointment. It was pretty boring, she did some checks but really it was nothing to note. We did however get to make an appointment for an ultrasound on Wednesday. I'm always excited to get an ultrasound, even when all you can see in the beginning is a tiny blob.
I am a bit nervous about being pregnant. Not because I don't know what to expect because I do. I've been down this path before. The problem is that we have been down this path more than once before and although my daughter is a healthy strong rainbow baby! I always worry that something could go wrong again. I'm sure I'm worried about nothing but until the day I'm holding my baby in my arms I can't help but worry.
A few family members know already but I kinda wish we had waited a little longer to let the news out. Oh well, even if something were to happen they would know any way so no biggie. Some times I want to shout it from the roof tops and the rest of the time, I like to keep it as my special secret. Obviously there comes a time when it's not so much a secret any more but whatever.
Wednesday we will hopefully be seeing out blob and ecstatic beyond belief.
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