Sunday, November 30, 2014

Dear Santa,

I've never written a letter to Santa. I've never believed in Santa. My daughter is celebrating her second Christmas I started to wonder about what I'm going to teach my daughter about Christmas.

She's a December baby so she wasn't aware of the festivities on her first Christmas but as she has  grown over the year she has become a sponge of all that is around her.  For the last few years my husband and I didn't even put up a Christmas tree or decorate. It was just the two of us and we were not home to celebrate because as a couple without children we did the running around.

As I considered what we were going to do about decorations and such I started to wonder what am I going to teach my daughter about Christmas. The older I get the more or seems that people are just worried about what they're getting from "Santa". I never believed in "Santa". My older brother did but according to my parents it was short lived. Maybe as my older brother he thought he was helping me with (future) disappointment in life or my parents decided it wasn't worth it.  I always knew he, as in a fat guy who came down the chimney to drop off presents, wasn't real.

From a fairly early age I was taught why Christmas is celebrated. As an adult it means much more to me now then it ever has. As a kid and even as a teen I was aware of the why but never really took the time to really think about it. My parents were the kind of people who went to church at Easter and Christmas, they didn't push it. They did work hard to make sure we got most of what we wanted.  We always got at least one gift from Santa but I knew that he wasn't real and that my parents had just put "Love, Santa" on a special gift.  

I don't think that my husband and I are going to teach my daughter to believe in Santa but she will know who he is.  To us it is more important that we teach her what Christmas is really about not about what to expect.  I know that we have great a great support group who respects the decisions that we make about what we teach to her.  

So sorry Santa, you probably won't really be getting letters from my child (or other future children).

Thursday, November 27, 2014

You Can Do It!

Yesterday I received a text (and although it was in reference to going to the bar) it made me smile.  I received this text from my friend who I met in my junior year in college.

He was trying to make sure that I'd stop by the bar this afternoon after work but when I read those words I thought, "you know what?  You are right!  I can do anything I put my mind to."

He was saying, "Come to the bar.  I'll see you in a few hours."

I read:
Girl, you are going through a transition in your life and you have been extremely unsure that what you are doing is best for you and your family.  I know you are trying to make a way in a world that is extremely over populated with bunches of other people who are trying to do the same thing.  But I know you and I know that if you decide that this is what you would like to do then do it because you will be successful and I will be right here cheering you on and picking you back up when you think that you can't go any further.  I will be there to buy to martini's and Gentleman's Jack Manhattans when you need them.  We all do crazy things and if this is the crazy thing you want to do then do it and I will help you in anyway that I can.  You will be successful.  
Now, I turned that little text into a whole different thing but that doesn't matter.  I know that he is going to be there for anything that I ask and that  if he can help me at all that he will.  Sometimes it's just knowing that you have great friends that will back you to make you feel like you can conquer the world.

So take your dreams by the reins and hold on tight because it is going to be a bumpy ride!

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Blog lovin'

I have followed blogs for years and just bookmarked each blog as I came across one I liked.  Oh my goodness... then I found out there was a magical website called BlogLovin.  I'm not sure why I'm always so late to the party but damn it!  I've arrived.  Woo hoo!!  I'm so glad this exists.

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I feel like a coding genius

Ok, maybe that's a little far but I did figure out how to add social media links on the side bar.  I am so far from knowing how to do some of these things but woo hoo!!!  I did it.  I may have googled every step but I did it.  I can see why people stick to a basic blog and pay people to do the rest.

Trying to build something on the internet is like flying to a new country where they can speak the language you do but you have to find the right person to translate each time.

If you'd like to see me anywhere else feel free to click those linky links on the right (left would have made my sentence sound cooler) or below!

Monday, November 24, 2014


This is a bit of an odd post because I was reading, checking a text message, or something and thought, "That would be a good blog post."  Well, the problem is, by the time I got to the computer and opened up blogger, whatever "that" was has completely slipped my mind...

I swear it must have had to do with my daughter but there is a giant empty space where my thoughts were... oh well.

I guess this counts as a post (haha!  not really) but whenever I remember what "that" was, I'll be sure to blog about it.

Friday, November 21, 2014

Need organization!

This week I have been really trying to get myself organized.


Whenever I get home I feel like no matter how much I've tried to keep up with my house during the week on Friday I'm looking at it going, "where did all this crap come from???"  Since September I have been trying to make a conscious effort to buy less and if I do buy something make sure that it is something that I am going to keep for a very long time.  Think more "timeless and classic" rather than "oh, that's a good deal".  I mean really how good of a deal is it if you don't really use it???  

Either way I'm just trying to get organized... this weekend my mission is to get a craft/video studio place set up in the basement and purge more clothes.  I've been doing well sitting clothes that I am no longer going to wear aside but really dropping them off has been the problem.

Oh, and I also want to get the bathroom thing that we bought assembled and painted.  I'm really just hoping that if I write this all down that I will actually do it... We'll see.  Hopefully on Monday I'll have an update.  Keep your fingers crossed.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Not Very Thankful

Today we had a work meeting with my whole office and somehow we got on the topic of Christmas.  Now as much as I love a celebration, I feel like people are not very thankful.  It's like Halloween happens and then we're ready for Christmas.  Since Thanksgiving is nearly smack dab in the middle of the two holidays I feel like it should get the same respect as the other two holidays.  


If you know me you would know that I love Halloween more than any other holiday even if people have turned it into "be as slutty as possible for one day".  I still find the whole idea of taking the time to get dressed up and put together a costume very exciting.  I love it so much I personally sewed my 10.5 month baby a Minnie Mouse costume by hand just so that she would have a unique outfit.  We went out with my nephew trick-or-treating in a small downtown even though we didn't get candy.  For me it is so very fun.  I hope that she will feel the same way when she is older and can make her own decisions (and if not hopefully she'll do it for me *fingers crossed*).

Back to the point of this whole post... once Halloween is over the stores drop the orange and green like a hot potato and are on to red and green.  It always baffles me how much less respect Thanksgiving is given each year.  As I get older I am trying to learn the fine art of enjoying each stage of things as they happen including giving each holiday it's own time and respect.  

I really started to get into this mode of thinking once my daughter was born. I'm not that girl who's really into little babies.  I think they are cute but I don't need to hold a baby when I see one.  When my daughter was born I realized there were going to be stages of her life that I am not going to enjoy as much as others so I made a deal with myself that I would enjoy each stage as it came.  So far this has been one of the greatest things about watching her grow up.  I'm not trying to rush anything but letting each stage grow and bud as it fits her.

I feel the same way about the holidays.  I know that people are really excited for December festivities but there is too much focus on buying stuff and not enough on enjoying what we have and things that we can't purchase.  It really disgusts me that stores in an effort to build up their bottom line are interrupting a holiday meant to be spent with family just to get people to the stores faster.  I know that it won't be changing any time soon but I sure hope that we get back to the days were we really remember things to be thankful for.

Friday, November 7, 2014

I just need to try to remember

I am trying so hard to try to remember to break out my camera and record things to vlog but it is so easy to forget.

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Monday, November 3, 2014

Where do people find the time???

I have been trying to do things in my life a little differently however creating new habits is hard.  Changing schedules is hard.  Finding time is hard.  However I am trying to not let any of those things discourage me.  There are so many times where I have just wanted to give up this "trying something new" thing.

Sometimes I find that being a mom, having a full time job and dealing with regular home duties I get lost in the shuffle of doing the motion of things without ever really thinking about what I am doing a why.  There are so many days that have gone by that have no significant impact on my brain that they are just dust in the wind.  It is way too easy to just let time pass by.  Then again it is hard to find the time.  Wow!  This is like an endless loop of frustration.  
I know that there are things that I have been worrying about so much more than I need to.  Sometimes it is so easy to get lost in the details of a project rather than actually looking at the big picture... but then sometimes it's way too overwhelming to look at the whole picture.  Each day I have to try my best to find the balance between the two.

The struggle.  

Goal: Try to work towards this new journey for at least 30 minutes per day.