This is when I get all mom on you: Going back to work

This is going to be the chapter in my life when so many of my blog posts are going to be all mommy related.  That's your only warning.  If that's not your thing, cool.  If it is your thing, cool.  I appreciate this space and will be getting into the whole mommy whirlwind that my life has become recently.

I recently have gone back to work at my office job.  It's obvious that although I was not working at the kind of job that provides me with cash in the bank and a W-2 that I was extremely busy working.  It's called being a mom.

Silly girl

I'm not really sure what I expected the second time around but let me tell you, I am a silly girl.  All that extra time I had with my daughter has vanished.  Poof!  Like a magic act, except no one is going to magically bring it back.

Happy birthday darling daughter!

I am so happy and proud to say, "happy birthday!" to my daughter.  I am such a proud mother.  In fifteen years I hope to be able to say the same thing and I'm going to hedge my bets and say that I will be.  I have been privileged to be the mother of a smart, beautiful and spunky little girl.  If course I'm biased and think that she is more than the bees knees, but as I've said before, this is my little space on the internet where I get to say what I want.  I fully expect that other parents feel the same way about their little ones, so if I were to read this on some one else's blog, I would think that they are speaking the truth of their heart, just as I am.

Rest is the Punishment

So it has been closer to three weeks since I wrote the last post and that has been because our lives have changed.  There is a new life in our house and we didn't pick him up at the pound!

The last post I wrote was on October 15th.  That post took quite a bit of courage for me to write and it also came with a few tears.  It took a lot out of me.  I had to step away from this little internet space of mine to gather myself.

I'm making time for this post

As you can tell, I am not a consistent blogger (say whaatttt?!).  I admire those who are and think that it takes serious dedication to post even weekly.  As an out of the home full time working mom I tend to fill up my time quickly collapsing exhausted into bed every night.  Or falling asleep on the couch only to be told to go to bed by my dear husband (who probably doesn't want to hear me complain about my crappy couch sleep).  It's been even more full as I am 36 weeks pregnant as of today (and slightly terrified of my exciting new life change soon).

I often start posts and leave them unfinished in my drafts because I haven't gathered enough pictures or found anything to pretty it up, so there can be weeks where I post nothing.  It bothers me but I usually get over it quick because I've busied myself with my next task of: work, normal house duties or trying to get ready for the new baby with the limited time (and energy) I've allotted myself.  Today, I decided that whether I put pictures in this post or not doesn't matter, what matters is that I wrote and posted it.

This blog is something that I write because I like to.  It is the things that I felt were worth sharing.  Sure, there are plenty of people who will never understand it and wonder why would anyone put "their business" out there but you know what?  I don't care.  I used to be one of those people.  As, I grow and evolve as a person I understand more and more of why people do what they do (even if I don't agree with it).

With that said, October 15th is two things to me.  First it is the day extended individual tax returns are due.  As a former tax accountant there are a few dates in your head that you never forget and this is one of them.  Second, it is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  It wasn't until this year that I learned there was an actual day dedicated to it.  I was aware that October was a month that had been dedicated to it but not an actual day.

Today, I choose to recognize this day.